My sweet Masyn,
You were my dream come true, the blessing I asked for. I carried you 4 1/2 months before you left me. There is not one single day I haven’t thought about you. You would have almost been here with your daddy and I , safe in our arms. I longed to rock you to sleep, sing you songs even though your mom doesn’t have the best singing voice, kiss your cheeks and love you endlessly.
I could feel you, I could hear your heart beat. And I seen you 8 times! Those were the best days. Until that day I seen you lifeless.
You were taken away from me before I even knew it. All I can ask is why? And I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. I’m sorry something went wrong. The hardest part of losing you is living everyday afterward.
I know you are safe where ever you are. Your body may not be here but your soul will always be with me. I get comfort in that.
I’m going to do something really awesome for you for you due date! And I hope you love it! Because if you are anything like your mom you looooove doggies, and I’m going to make sure some homeless puppies have blankets, food, snacks and toys! Donated all in your beautiful name.
You would have loved to meet all your mommy and daddies friends. They would have been the BEST aunts and uncles to you. Mommies friends have helped her a lot during her difficult time of missing you. I know you are watching over them too.
All your grandmas and grandpas ands aunts… I know they miss you too. You are one lucky little girl with a family with so much love to give.
I keep thinking about what it would be like
To have you grow up in our new home. We have this cute little room that would have been perfect for you, but now it sits empty. Maybe you will have a brother or sister one day who can use that room.
I miss you and love you more than words have even say. I hope you always remember that you were loved from the moment we knew about you. Thank you for making me a mom. I will carry you with me forever.
Till we meet again my angel
Love you always